Dear Sam,
I called the hospital at 12 plus today ... and the nurse said "not good", "still vomitting", "not peeing". My heart really dropped.  :( Because, these are signs that the liver is still failing...  Called the sister at 2 plus, and she told me you pee-ed, You know, my entire face lit up! It was such joy! :) I told some of my colleagues "he pee-ed, he pee-ed!" and was really all excited. I guess some cannot understand my excitement coz pee-ing is such a normal , unwanted process in most of our lives! But Sam, I am sure it was great relieve to you to clear all that toxic out of your system.

Then I started realise that today's lesson is about CONTENTMENT. I guess, I might have taken life for granted, which resulted in the lack of contentment, hence, cannot appreciate the little things in life. Yes, Sam, pee-ing may be a very simple, small action in our lives, but yet, we had start looking at the big things and never realize the importance of the little things. Today, i learn and want to be contented with the circumstances and the situation I have been placed in... even in the smallest thing, I want to learn to be contented with what God has given and provided, Sam. I want to be happy and praise God for every single thing. I want to slow down my pace of life, to learn to appreciate things, and not take them for granted, and be contented with even the smallest things given! :)

So, today, I stay contented that I have a job, i have people who favours me, I have people who loves me and stand by me throughout my difficult times. I stay contented that Sam, I still have you. I stay contented with every friend in my life that God has given me and shall not put myself in a place of comparison with them.

Yes, Sam. Today, this contentment, and simplicity in me has enabled me to restrain myself from the spirit of complaining and thinking bad thoughts.... :)

Sam, Will you be a miracle for our family tomorrow? I miss you at home. Just now, when I got home, i gave Gigi an extra hug, coz you were not with her... But, i am sure.... its just different for her. sam, will you come home soon?

With Love,
Chin Ling

sam, Thank you for life's little lessons. God, thank you for sending Sam.

Dear Sam,
As you lie in the hospital for the second day now ... I am lying here, thinking of you.In fact, the thought of you for the entire day, has brought so much missfulness in me towards you.. I wonder how you are doing at the Pet House. I take comfort that the vet and the caretaker adores you and takes very good care of you.

Sam, when I visited you today, there were so many things that I wanted to say to you. I stopped short at saying many things... coz I just didn't want to cry anymore. But, I want to tell you that I miss and love you very much. I want to tell you that I want you to get well soon because when you come home, I want to spend more time with you.  We still have dog bones for you, and many hugs for you. The birds in the garden is waiting for you to chase them away... :)

Sam,  it feels different to walk down the stairs this morning, into the kitchen, without you sitting by my side, waiting to pick on our food, without you wagging your almost invisible tail when you see us. It was today that I started to learn a lesson - Do Not Take For Granted. Everday, without fail, you do the routine things to show us your love, and as the day goes by, you just seem to be part of the house that I decided to take you for granted.

But, today, throughout the entire day, what went through my mind was "I should have spend more time with you." "I should have given you more of your favourite dog bones" "we should have taken more walks together" "i should have hugged you more before you left for the hospital" , and I knew that I shouldn't have taken you for granted. That lesson has helped me to overcome one of my weaknesses - To not keep envying and comparing, but instead to treasure every moment, every where, and to love and treasure others whenever you can. Because, you don't know just how long you get.

Sam, are you proud of me today? I did not push my way into the MRT, neither did I snap at tired people who were rude along the way. I just wanted to slow down and treasure every moment that god has given me, to learn to see the good in everyone else around me - to not take anything for granted. Sam, i felt my heart expand a little more to include others around me and i felt happier, and I realise the world isn't a very bad place after all.

Sam, I am waiting for you to come home, because my heart is a little bigger today, my world is a much lovelier place today and it is waiting for you to come in.

Sam, I really wish you could read this, I miss the look in your eyes which brings alot of comfort to me after school/work. I miss your quiet presence sitting beside me when I am sad. I miss your earnest look  and stretched neck during meal times.  Sam, please give me one more chance. Please come home soon.

Thank you for life little lessons ,sam - I will remember to treasure every moment, every person and every loved ones. I will learn to rejoice in others happiness and struggle with them in their pain because you just don't want to take anyone for granted.

Father, I commit Sam into your hands. Tonight, Lord, touch him with your healing hands, so that his liver and kidney may continue to function. Lord, please protect him, and be with him in this lonely night. God, I pray that tomorrow he will start reacting normally and functioning normally. I know you can do it. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Meet Gigi, the doggy in law




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Love is in the Air..
And I just have to say Pastor is right...

You Feel Victory Right in your heart....

When You have the 3 attitudes! :)

Most Importantly, Draw near to Jesus.